Tuesday, 20 March 2012

I do not do walking away!

Back in the early 80's I used to be interested in modern military history.  Two books come to mind.  One showed photos from the Falklands war,  servicemen were dirty, unshaven and looked as if they had slept rough and had a bad breakfast to misquote Oliver Rendall Holmes.  The second book was the American Invasion of Grenada with images of cleanshaven, clean servicemen.  OK this may have been false and insulting to those whose were there but bear with me.  You get dressed in your room, put makeup on and take a pic.  If lucky you get a few hours perhaps even overnight, absolutely fantastic.  Then again you get up, dress, makeup and go out, exposed to the elements and "do it for real."  Those shoes ache, the wig needs a lot of work, the makeup runs.  Then there is the practical aspects; where to carry money, what watch to wear, what type of bag.  This ignores such topics as talking to people, using female toilets etc.   It is fine and for most of the time the best you will get to do the few snatched hours but if you want to "do it for real" and there is no requirement to do so it all gets much more difficult. There is no choice for me, if the "door is open" I need to step through it even if you end up with blisters which take over 4 weeks to heal.

Sunday, 18 March 2012

You keep on knocking...

Started to think about holiday 2012.  Booking room at legends.  It will be in August.  Lots of stuff here.  Holiday now means Paige time, Brighton means out dressed.  It also means 4 plus months away, gulp.  Only other windows of opportunity would have been April holidays or late may/june.  Went for february holiday, complete result so cannot complain but far away in time. Wondering about Sparkle, possible weekend.  Its money car will be nasty, then holiday in August will be expensive.  No way going back to University of Brighton.
Been looking at old pics, 2004 Paige, as then unnamed, was trying to get out.  Ignoring it , denial.  Stupid, stupid me.  Could have had 4 years headstart.

Sunday, 4 March 2012

I just hope that something good about to happen

Sometimes you have to just record whats happening and get on with it.  Only later may something wonderful happen and you look back and can see the roots of it earlier.  Well, I have to hope something wonderful will happen for certainly things feel as if they are changing!  Had an evening and night to dress, normally this would have been the cue for beaucoup pics but not then.  Then today good solid safe 4 hours, nope no pics. OK I am falling out of love with Flickr but there is something else.  Not sure what but Paige has somehow perculated to the surface in different ways.  Cannot put a finger on it but preferf to believe its a transitional phase, how can it be?  What do I want anyway?  Does this take us to the counselling issues?  When will Paige next be out in daylight?  No answers but live in hope. The title is from Kate Bush Cloudbusting single, yes Donald Sutherland.