2015 on inspection better than first thought?

A throw away remark suggested that I might  not get New Years Eve alone, could change and hope it does but its a bad thought. Sadly, however, its been typical of this Xmas, there has been so little of the girl. Been surprisingly busy it has to be said tidying up.  Today I had a go at the chest of draws replacing the draws with plastic boxes. There is a lot of clothes etc and it wouldbe valuable to try to put them into some order and even get rid of some. Found the Playbuny outfit, always slightly too tight but got some nice pics from it. November didnot happen, it didnot happen in2013 either but even so.  Then again summer 2015 does not have the feeling of a success, removing bladder issues, rain and inappropiate running a lot did go right and it should be remembered more fondly.  Possibly the thyroid is to blame, casting its shadow over the second half, at least, of the year. I was published in a magazne again, which was nice. OK since we have started , what else? Did the walk dressed, did a run dressed, not a busy year for Flickr it has to be said.  Got a better flash system which can help. Put on a bit of weight cf thyroid. I does not feel a good year somehow. Did London dressed, how can I forget that, saw the blue whale, was on a tube.Several times, on trains too. Thats all positive things. Yet there is remains, not a success somehow. Love the new boobs. No advances on the voice. Did do Brighton Trans Pride, well sort of.
Face looking older, hands looking older.
So for 2016; promised myself a February holiday, ideally Manchester. Not sure Brighton for Summer 2016 either. At the moment feel a bit flat, later new things may appear. There are grounds for optimism it must be said, my confidence is quite good, I am not fat, I have been out and about and am happy to do so. Initially Transister was a moonshot, then doing the walk dressed, the Liverpool then London. Now that was a moonshot it has to be said. What would be a moonshot now? Perhaps that is part of the problem, as have said before, all the easy stuff has been done. So in a way 2015 was going to be difficult to follow after 2014 and so it has proved. Well possibly. There is a sense of optimism it has to be said, there always has been.

Gilding The Lily

Just before Xmas I went to Newcastle to buy presents for people, as it turned out I mostly bought me stuff but that is more a sign of the preparation andthings I had bought for othrs before. Honest.  Well I needed to go to Kiehl's and u heav lifting eye cream and midnight eye cream. There was also the posibility that I would get some midnght concentrate skin drops. As things went I dropped the first £50 easily enough and then the next £35 on the skin evening drops. Well actually the bill came to £95 which as £1 out so I ent back got it changed and a free sample of evening drops which might last quite a while. The point is do they work? OK you accept a something is needed but what and what diference can it make? I prefer to believe they do makea difference, certainly the cosmetics last for long enough so I do not leave feeling I have been robbed.
When I was younger I looked youngr than I was, even as far as 995 a friend said "you must know you look younger than your age."  Odd way of putting it but thank you, even as far as say 47 at The Boudoir when I said how old I was Jodie looked faintly impressed. Then something happened, not sure what and the eyes went lined, the nose and mouth creases appeared and the hair started to go white. I am still thin and believe that helps, shorter hair helps hide the white The makeup only accentuates it all. Several years ago the hnds started to look old and this has got slightly worse.
There is good news though, I am still thin and the legs are good, these all help. Note that there has been no mention of how I feel, my health or other aspects of getting older. Certainly the left kneegoing has been an alarm call  but that can be exergarated I currently believe. The eyes are not what they were either.
Its not been a good holiday for the girl, no dressing.  The niece has been in all the time, the sister has been working so not taking the neice to anywhere really. Its actually beginning to knaw a bit at me, hopefully New Years Eve will be OK. I have dodged some opportunities to dress but feeling the need now.

Well that could be nice.

Suddenly a rather delicious prospect of a wekend to myself has appeared.  True its in march but even so. If it does come off then beaucoup pics, prperly done, real dressing, less likely would be a visit to a club. We shall seeif itdoes happen but would be nice.  In past yeasr have had such weekends, close door on friday, leaving on monday morning, rollup rug, setup backcloth and go for it. It has also been valuable just dressing for extended period. bac in prehistory there was entire weeks but had to go to work so that was not so good but still not bad at all.  Another possible but less so is a few weeks off work, say go to Manchester yes well it might be cheaper in term time. Even that might well offer a good photo opportunity. There is going to have to be some rather deeper thoughts about WHERE I AM GOING  but lets wait till the nodule is not an issue.

Ho,Ho, Ho

One of the very few traditons Sapphire has is the Xmas pic; put on an Santa dress and pose ideally by a Xmas tree. Sadly this year the tree and an opportunity did not coincide. Almost did to e fair but not quite. In the end managed to use a pic from last year, not ideal but etter than nothing.  nother tradition used to be buying lingerie from la Sensa and having a lingerie day. No doubt as males in such places was more usual at Xmas. Beyond such things now, may say frot he lass, or can I exchange it but as likely as not will just do it. Theone tradition I really do hope indures is the New Years eve dressing having a nice meal posting a pic and seeing in the new year dressed. Very soon I will have to do an audit of 2015 for the lass and its going to be slim pickings I am afraid. OK up to a point but well lets see.
Got the scrotum repierced 3 times, suspect too close together but can live with that. Sent a Xmas card pic to my old piercer, may even rip those burlesque DVD's for her. She messed up my P.A. and the frist guiche but lets move on.
Its not been an ideal year, several reasons but its not really going to be enough to just say hope for the best, need to be proactive.  The problem is how? All the easy stuff has been done.

Quick Dip In

Tomorrow is the last day of the belated holidays. The Manchester trip did not happen and the frenzy of picsdid not happen either. It is not certain there will be pics tomorrow.  There was a rather inconclusive camming event on friday where I did not look too bad. Partly its the cold weather, partly its the thyroid creating grief. Hopefully I am down to 12 st and the exercises are helping but still not ideal. Do want to do a Xmas card sometime and get some more pics in the can as it were. Sooner rather than later need to do a review of the year. Its not going to be a great year but, lets be fair, Summer 205 did a lot.

Money to burn

Went for a run today and picked up the sheer robe, only £7 including p and p already slightly disappointed by it, needs a belt. Too early to say it goes on the wasted money pile but possibly. Actually that is a very big pile. Partly because when starting off would snatch and run so the bee costume from Mataland, why, why, why? Several pairs of shoes, the block ones, yes you. How many tops and dresses again primarily from Mataland. The big belts, the shrug, OK might yet use that. REgarding wigs there must be quite a few, granted cheap ones but even so. The size 8 breastforms deserve an honourable mention as they were £140. Actually thought they were good, for about 24 hours then doubt crept in, actually wanted size 4 but talked into size 8. They ended up at the Boudoir. If pushe could argue the small Axfords corset was a mistake but early days for that.
When tidying up the room a couple of years ago manage to fill 2 big black bags with shoes and clothes which went down to the charity shop. I would walk past and there would be in the windowa pair of my shoes. Occassionally the size or fit would be wrong, it happens.  Of course that is life, we learn by experience so possibly I should not be too hard on myself.
Lets be nagetive for a minute there must have been a few hundred pounds wasted on stuff never used. Scary really, The Lumix 57 is in that catergory, the alpha 57 hovers around it as its a dog but have resolved most of the problems. Possibly the £35 flash is on the pile too.
Bought myself a new pair of scales, not before time. My wet weight is 12 5 ln and I an certainly over 12 st. On the plus side I am a bit more toned due to the exercises. If I do do Alisons the picsmay be less than brillant!

Not A Lot Really

Sapphire has been pinging a bit, really should be in Manchester but an not. Again the chance to do a Halloween pic did not happen. Used an Alison pic which the Flickr verse seemed to like. Wondering about a new flash unit, ideally a mains unit. OK yes I have on, two actually but even so. The problem is the size of the available area. Really need a bigger space. Finally shaved my face today after 5 days, skin nice and soft. Will have to do more pilates, hopefully it will make my calf muscles less blokey from behind. Putting on abit of weight, must be  11st 10 if not more. Will need to be careful about that.
Seen a few choice pieces of  clothong and corsets which might quite like. Possibly for Xmas.  A post in TvChix suggests Axfords is closing, personally be surprised and not a bit saddened. Was sad to hear Lacies Hove closing down but not a big loss as had moved on but even so if cannot survive in Brighton where can you survive?