Long Legs Of The Law

Did some pics today. An absolute psychological struggle it ahs to be said, spent ages with the Interfit flash on the stairs with a bounce umbrella. Put makeup on quickly and did the policewomen pics. The "charged" squark is very loud and cannot be cancelled and is a pain. I thought the pics looked OK but on seeing them exposure is too high but migth get something useful. The point is I realised I have to do so much to get a pic, setup the flash, setup the camera, find clothes, put on makeup and then wig and then go for it. Its a big battle. Say I had my own place, the flash could be setup pretty well permantly, the clothes in drawers neatly and easy to find, an awful lot of time saved to start. Then putting away would be quicker too. As it is well we have been there before so lets move on. Hopefully can save some pics, though feel curiosly not bothered as if just getting made up is enough sometimes.
New Years Eve looks unlikely sadly, it is not impossible another cahnce to dress may occur this week but not holding my breath. There was a nice small bag at FatFace which hoped would be in January sales but no joy. Mind you just seen another bag which might well do. Soon will do a review of this year, we shall see!

Under The Tree

One of the nicer Xmas traditions/excuse to dress up is the Xmas card. So for several years I have found a skimpy Xmas costume and taken some pics by the Xmas tree. Sadly last year could not which was  not nice at all as I recycled an old pic. Yesterday I managed to do the shoot for this year. sadly the new flash units have  a loud bleep when charged which really put me off though they synced nicely with the camera.  The other mains flash refused to sync so it was back to the battery flash through a white umbrella. Unfortuntely the exposure never really got right and the flash ate 4 batteries after 150 shots. The problem is its reinventing the wheel all the time, so if I could just get more practise I would be better ad quicker but I am not. Did not get the policewoman or Lara Croft look done either.  Did get a bit of camming in which is always fun. Reallywonder about the camera sometimes, the pic quality should be better. On the plus side there is at lwast 1 day when I should be alone so might be able to squeeze in another session.
It may have been the wide angle lens but the face looked fatter and all in all it was not the success I was hoping for. Will have 3 definite pics to upload but thats not ideal.  The dress is actually Ann Summers. Had hoped to look like a young Julie Christie but reasonably happy with the look.

Bit Dull

I rather suspect the dose of PTU of 1 tablet a day is too low. Currently I am running at 12 st 5 lb which sort of shows, started doing pilates again and that helps tighten things. Need to get down to 11 st 8 ib whuch would do, ideally 11 st 3 lb. Sometimes I think additional muscle mass at a hgher density is partly to blame for the eight but even so I can pich more than an inch so need to sort things out. Granted Xmas is coming but usually do not go wild so the damage ma be reduced. The pilates did thin the muscles and the running does not. Lets move on.
It has always been a mild source of regret if not concern that the technical quality of the pics is not better. Blame it on the flash, not ideal lens, iffy focussung but there are very few really spot on pics which are sharp and crisp. The 50 mm prime lens produced a better image but requires greater distance and has not really be overly used. The flash is past its best. A new flash would cost say £250 which if it would work I would pay. Not happy with the lens flare either. Do have 2 proper flash units and stands but need time and space to set them up. The post pic photoshop work is better than it was but not ideal either. This needs getting in perspective, the pics are still technically pretty good compared to a lot on Flickr so its a relative issue but still one would like to solve. In the past when J and K went away on holidays had the luxury of a weekend or even week to set up a proper set and try to maximise the quality of the pics. They were happy days, its was so easy to get a real buzz out of the pics, now so much has been already done that to an extent it is not surprising that not publishing as much.

Polyfilla

Been looking at the Summer 2016 pics today and the thing that struck me was loneliness. Brighton must be a fantastic place to be with money and someone else the number of things and places and bars and restaurants you can go to  is incredible. Yesyou can do these alone but it totall lacks somthing and I would rather not. Its been a bad year for the gurl, not enough dressing, not enough pics, no support group all in all its not good. Overlayed on that is the thyroid which has caused weight gain and lethargy so opportunities to dress are not taken up. I could be as much as 12 st 5 lb but while do not look it there are still issues with clothes. Hopefully this will be temporary as when things improve can lose a bit of weight and do more exercise.
Would like a bullet bra, its still on the list of to do. Have a white blouse for the policewoman shoot so could potentially do it anything, there is also the Action girl look shall we say Lara Croft, issues with foot wear but even so. The second flash unit was successfully liberated but I have yet to use it in anger, or the first one for that matter.
Then there is Spring 2017. Would like Brighton but lots of stuff there and Manchester has a couple of very nice options.  Need to book that up and get train tickets. There is also the matter of the Christmas card but that is very up in the air for the moment.
Do not expect to get a New Years Eve dressed. Gosh this seems so negative which is not what I intended. Need to be more positive in 2017. More can be done.

Gas, Gas, Gas

Managed to do some dressing today. Granted no makeup but pics if slightly fetishy! Interestingly after the pics and all had been packed away put on a wig and some leggings and heels for a few minutes. There she was just there. The girl just popped out and it was rather relaxing and nice. Half way through one of the cats made noises from the liiter tray which sounded like someone coning in which reminded me whu dressing at home is so stressful. There was half a plan to reallu go for it and possibly even do the Xmas card pic. This didnot happen, again, again. Next friday week there may well be another chance lets see. There's a bad minute when you look at yourself in the mirror with the corrective glasses on and its not good. Then you get over it and you are good to go.
Sadly I am 12st 2 lb ish. Not done much pilates either. The body does not look good but still not too bad. Not sure how much can be laid at the door of the thyroid but am going to try to cut down if that is possible. In theory should be losing weight but that is not happening at all. Its not been a good year for the girl at all, again Summer 2016 pused to remember anything big which is wrong as big things did happen, going to London for example. Unless K is working New years Eve may well have to admit will not be dressed that evening. Will do a proper roundup of things closer to the time but its not going to be a golden year.

Remimberance Bump

Even now at 50 plus there are still non sexual things which have a slightly erotic charge, not I hasten to say , in a fetisthistic way. Primarily in them is old railway carriage, this is an easy one. Back in the very late 1970's or even as late as 1981 Mayfair had a photspread of a woman in Victorian clothing stripping off in a Victorian, posibly, train. It was the Xmas issue where they would push the bost out a bit and there would typically be one such set of time past set in appropiate surroundings which must have been quite expensive but then Mayfair did attempt to go for the executive look.  The girls were always secretaries, dental assistants or vets assistants. The pics were reasonably nicely done and there would be beaches and air stewardesses. Provided you could buy into porn being acceptable, and I did and still do, then it pretty well worked. The girls were always, "nice" the stories not especially explicit and the adverts surprisingly upmarket, the Commodore C64 was in one year!
Razle started to appear in the middle 1980's and was very down market but even this now has a certain charm I suppsoe. Several years ago stubled across a site where someone had scanned in a surprisingly large number of top shelf magazines from the 70's and ealy 1980's. It was like steping back in time and I am not sure what lessons can be gleaned from them. The point here is to what extent the female me has had her psyche moulded by these pics, if at all. So the pics of me in stockings and suspenders etc may well have some slight resonances to a dental hygenist from Epsom who is happiest with her great Dane.
I was watching a DVD of Bulman, 1985, detective show, meant for 9 pm, mild peril. Well a section was set in a strip club. The Sweeney would probably have had a stripper showing her breasts, Minder certainly did, but there was not, the stripper showed very little skin. However at the end of scene for no plot related reason the woman Bulman is talking to takes off her gown and shows her breasts for several seconds and then walks out, its for comic effect as a punch line to a joke. It was unnecessary and I felt mildly unconfortable with it.
There was a photoset of a nice blond in an Andy Pandy type jump suit with a zio which went to the crotch, which set my nerves jangling. Sheena Easton in the videl 9 to 5 wears such a jump suit. When at day 2, possibly at Sussex getting my paperwork and grand sorted, loads of standing around in queues there was an admin woman who wore a jumpsuit and stilletoes. ITs a great look in my opinion and I was left thinking I was along way from Kansas Toto. Certainly Sunderland did not have women wearing such things.

Feeling A Little Better

In theory today and yesterday was going to be a dressing fest. However went to Newcastle on saturday and to be fair got some stockings, wetlook gloves, black lipstick and fake blood. The last 2 were for a Hallowean set I had hopes for. Saturday I was in bed by 9. Sunday, woke up cold and ended up putting the radiators on for an hour. Did a bit of dressing and it became apparent makeup would be required so put some on quickly. Then some pics were required and so ended up using the fake bllod which went all over the place and took some time to wash out and the black lipstick. Pleasantly surprised by the stretchy LBD which is as well as the focus was off on some. Had intended to use the proper flash units but didnot set them up, they need a bit of space. So, on the whole, feel better. It was not such a batlle today as set the sights reasonably low but still its a traumatic visit to the core of my ego. The Ann Summers holdups kept falling down. In theory would get a new camera or atleast a new flash but will wait on that one. Part of the problem is that donot really have much nw looks to do so it is a bit of a repeat. The batteries started to fail but the fake blood would have made changing them too much work so stayed with them. Not ideal but OK.
There was the possibility of going down to Manchester sometime and meeting a Tgurl and her boyfriend for some pics sometime. It might still happen but there is a sense it equally might not so we shall se on that one.Autumn 2016 will not happen, neither did Autumn 2015. Might get a couple of days dressing in though probably not. Still to do the police/SWAT look but got the euipment now, ideally a bullet belt too but it would have to be the right price.