Mary Tyler Moore died yesterday, she was 80 and apparently had big proble swith diabetes. I never saw the DickVan Dyke show but did see The Mary Tyler Moore Show where Mary Richards was a single woman in mid 1970'sAmerica and was trying to "have it all" with hilarious consequences but still with groundbreaking ideas such as a single woman having a career and being treated with respect. There is a bit in the opening sequence where she is giving her trademark smile and throws up her, no doubt crocheted beret into the air, at the joyof living. This scene wasgently mocked in Rhoda but it feels right. Think I have mentioned this before but these moments are what I look for being the girl. They have been there, a look throught he blog will reveal them, in The Signalman with a smokey fire, crossing the road at the Clocktower they have happened. Granted I have moved on and done more so I no longer look for them. Thats it really. You do not look for them they creep up on you.
Found myself worrying about Trump, hopefully wrongly. Prefer to believe that once freedoms have been won they somehow become ingrained so people no longer say "lets be nasty to group x" or lets get tough on abortions. Mary Richards would be too classy for that and be nice to gays or Trans people, as really people shoild be but in 70's America or UK it was not too likely to happen. Audry Hepburn is reported to have been happy to potray a lesbian in one of her films but though her public were not ready for it. Once people see that other groups are just normal nice people then they treat people nicely. lets hope so and that they continue to do so.
Friday, 27 January 2017
Sunday, 15 January 2017
Getting Heavy
It is sunday late afternoon and I have ran 10.55 miles which was not too difficult. Weighed myself after rehydrating and its as bad as I thought it would be. 12 st 7 lb. Have not been that weight since say 2006-7. Not sure what to say or do really. It may be the thyroid but last time didnot get so bad and so heavy. It has to show but not as badly as it did when I was the weight last time.
In 2 weeks have an appointment with the consultant so will see what that yields. Hopefully the weight will come off easier this time.
Would be good to dress soon, possibl get a chance tomorrow. Still have not sorted out Spring 2017 but its the early evening , been out all day, all gone well, sitting there in a Starbucks or whatever and having a coffee its about 5 or 6ish and I have food and alcoholic drink for the evening. Partly I suppose its the normality of it all; here is a woman sitting down after a had days shopping, having a coffee and then going to her room.Not even going out with the girls later but thats OK ish.
In 2 weeks have an appointment with the consultant so will see what that yields. Hopefully the weight will come off easier this time.
Would be good to dress soon, possibl get a chance tomorrow. Still have not sorted out Spring 2017 but its the early evening , been out all day, all gone well, sitting there in a Starbucks or whatever and having a coffee its about 5 or 6ish and I have food and alcoholic drink for the evening. Partly I suppose its the normality of it all; here is a woman sitting down after a had days shopping, having a coffee and then going to her room.Not even going out with the girls later but thats OK ish.
Sunday, 1 January 2017
2016, So-So Really
OK 2016, how was it? Not ideal, not good, lets blame the thyroid. Put on too much weight, low motivation but the holiday was better than last year. Not enough pics but on the whole better pics. Second New Years Eve not dressed, that burned. February was good, Liverpool and Manchester, no complaints there. Summer 2016, well. Lots of dressing, outdoor pics, some nice indoor pics too, new wig. Almost forgot, 2 hours at The Boudoir, that was better than expected. Glad I did it but could see the limitations to it. Sadly Imageworks closed down. No pics printed this year. Do miss the Support Group meetings. Slightly surprised at that.
Cannot really say there has been any progression this year, treading water at best but lets blame th ethyroid and any year where I do Liverpool and London dressed has to be a success. So really it was not too bad but lets hope the thyroid when sorted allows for more dressing. Then again J is still boyfriend less so that put a crimp on things. Ideally try to find a second place to dress. Put on too much weight but lets try a diet.
Hopefully in 2017 there will be a good February and summer holiday.
Cannot really say there has been any progression this year, treading water at best but lets blame th ethyroid and any year where I do Liverpool and London dressed has to be a success. So really it was not too bad but lets hope the thyroid when sorted allows for more dressing. Then again J is still boyfriend less so that put a crimp on things. Ideally try to find a second place to dress. Put on too much weight but lets try a diet.
Hopefully in 2017 there will be a good February and summer holiday.
Tuesday, 27 December 2016
Long Legs Of The Law
Did some pics today. An absolute psychological struggle it ahs to be said, spent ages with the Interfit flash on the stairs with a bounce umbrella. Put makeup on quickly and did the policewomen pics. The "charged" squark is very loud and cannot be cancelled and is a pain. I thought the pics looked OK but on seeing them exposure is too high but migth get something useful. The point is I realised I have to do so much to get a pic, setup the flash, setup the camera, find clothes, put on makeup and then wig and then go for it. Its a big battle. Say I had my own place, the flash could be setup pretty well permantly, the clothes in drawers neatly and easy to find, an awful lot of time saved to start. Then putting away would be quicker too. As it is well we have been there before so lets move on. Hopefully can save some pics, though feel curiosly not bothered as if just getting made up is enough sometimes.
New Years Eve looks unlikely sadly, it is not impossible another cahnce to dress may occur this week but not holding my breath. There was a nice small bag at FatFace which hoped would be in January sales but no joy. Mind you just seen another bag which might well do. Soon will do a review of this year, we shall see!
New Years Eve looks unlikely sadly, it is not impossible another cahnce to dress may occur this week but not holding my breath. There was a nice small bag at FatFace which hoped would be in January sales but no joy. Mind you just seen another bag which might well do. Soon will do a review of this year, we shall see!
Tuesday, 20 December 2016
Under The Tree
One of the nicer Xmas traditions/excuse to dress up is the Xmas card. So for several years I have found a skimpy Xmas costume and taken some pics by the Xmas tree. Sadly last year could not which was not nice at all as I recycled an old pic. Yesterday I managed to do the shoot for this year. sadly the new flash units have a loud bleep when charged which really put me off though they synced nicely with the camera. The other mains flash refused to sync so it was back to the battery flash through a white umbrella. Unfortuntely the exposure never really got right and the flash ate 4 batteries after 150 shots. The problem is its reinventing the wheel all the time, so if I could just get more practise I would be better ad quicker but I am not. Did not get the policewoman or Lara Croft look done either. Did get a bit of camming in which is always fun. Reallywonder about the camera sometimes, the pic quality should be better. On the plus side there is at lwast 1 day when I should be alone so might be able to squeeze in another session.
It may have been the wide angle lens but the face looked fatter and all in all it was not the success I was hoping for. Will have 3 definite pics to upload but thats not ideal. The dress is actually Ann Summers. Had hoped to look like a young Julie Christie but reasonably happy with the look.
It may have been the wide angle lens but the face looked fatter and all in all it was not the success I was hoping for. Will have 3 definite pics to upload but thats not ideal. The dress is actually Ann Summers. Had hoped to look like a young Julie Christie but reasonably happy with the look.
Sunday, 11 December 2016
Bit Dull
I rather suspect the dose of PTU of 1 tablet a day is too low. Currently I am running at 12 st 5 lb which sort of shows, started doing pilates again and that helps tighten things. Need to get down to 11 st 8 ib whuch would do, ideally 11 st 3 lb. Sometimes I think additional muscle mass at a hgher density is partly to blame for the eight but even so I can pich more than an inch so need to sort things out. Granted Xmas is coming but usually do not go wild so the damage ma be reduced. The pilates did thin the muscles and the running does not. Lets move on.
It has always been a mild source of regret if not concern that the technical quality of the pics is not better. Blame it on the flash, not ideal lens, iffy focussung but there are very few really spot on pics which are sharp and crisp. The 50 mm prime lens produced a better image but requires greater distance and has not really be overly used. The flash is past its best. A new flash would cost say £250 which if it would work I would pay. Not happy with the lens flare either. Do have 2 proper flash units and stands but need time and space to set them up. The post pic photoshop work is better than it was but not ideal either. This needs getting in perspective, the pics are still technically pretty good compared to a lot on Flickr so its a relative issue but still one would like to solve. In the past when J and K went away on holidays had the luxury of a weekend or even week to set up a proper set and try to maximise the quality of the pics. They were happy days, its was so easy to get a real buzz out of the pics, now so much has been already done that to an extent it is not surprising that not publishing as much.
It has always been a mild source of regret if not concern that the technical quality of the pics is not better. Blame it on the flash, not ideal lens, iffy focussung but there are very few really spot on pics which are sharp and crisp. The 50 mm prime lens produced a better image but requires greater distance and has not really be overly used. The flash is past its best. A new flash would cost say £250 which if it would work I would pay. Not happy with the lens flare either. Do have 2 proper flash units and stands but need time and space to set them up. The post pic photoshop work is better than it was but not ideal either. This needs getting in perspective, the pics are still technically pretty good compared to a lot on Flickr so its a relative issue but still one would like to solve. In the past when J and K went away on holidays had the luxury of a weekend or even week to set up a proper set and try to maximise the quality of the pics. They were happy days, its was so easy to get a real buzz out of the pics, now so much has been already done that to an extent it is not surprising that not publishing as much.
Saturday, 3 December 2016
Polyfilla
Been looking at the Summer 2016 pics today and the thing that struck me was loneliness. Brighton must be a fantastic place to be with money and someone else the number of things and places and bars and restaurants you can go to is incredible. Yesyou can do these alone but it totall lacks somthing and I would rather not. Its been a bad year for the gurl, not enough dressing, not enough pics, no support group all in all its not good. Overlayed on that is the thyroid which has caused weight gain and lethargy so opportunities to dress are not taken up. I could be as much as 12 st 5 lb but while do not look it there are still issues with clothes. Hopefully this will be temporary as when things improve can lose a bit of weight and do more exercise.
Would like a bullet bra, its still on the list of to do. Have a white blouse for the policewoman shoot so could potentially do it anything, there is also the Action girl look shall we say Lara Croft, issues with foot wear but even so. The second flash unit was successfully liberated but I have yet to use it in anger, or the first one for that matter.
Then there is Spring 2017. Would like Brighton but lots of stuff there and Manchester has a couple of very nice options. Need to book that up and get train tickets. There is also the matter of the Christmas card but that is very up in the air for the moment.
Do not expect to get a New Years Eve dressed. Gosh this seems so negative which is not what I intended. Need to be more positive in 2017. More can be done.
Would like a bullet bra, its still on the list of to do. Have a white blouse for the policewoman shoot so could potentially do it anything, there is also the Action girl look shall we say Lara Croft, issues with foot wear but even so. The second flash unit was successfully liberated but I have yet to use it in anger, or the first one for that matter.
Then there is Spring 2017. Would like Brighton but lots of stuff there and Manchester has a couple of very nice options. Need to book that up and get train tickets. There is also the matter of the Christmas card but that is very up in the air for the moment.
Do not expect to get a New Years Eve dressed. Gosh this seems so negative which is not what I intended. Need to be more positive in 2017. More can be done.
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