To understand you must first measure

I have started in a small way some counselling.  Not sure what to expect or what outcome really want but things could not stay as they are. Again what can it really achieve.  I am hoping for some peace and answers so then know where I am and so can progress. Part of the problem is so many terms, I prefer so say I am trans as that seems a general catchall. Do not want to transition I think but suspect more than a crossdresser.  Though it is at best dubious COGNATI put me as "Androgny"  and cautioned against permament transition though a partial transformation may be beneficial.  Hmm could have a point there. Wear the clothes but do not get the bits cut off basically.  

Onwards and Upwards

Lets have a brief lookback and ask the question what did I do to progress Sapphire in 2011?  Well actually a lot!  The out in daylight in Brighton in August followed by the all day on October was a total success and in fact October at Legends was a big result.  Got a better colour wig.Increased confidence massively, met Rebecca MAC makeover, Brighton museum, all good.  Then there is W'ear out a tg/ts support group been there several times, all good.  Got ears pierced, absolut result there too, very little negative feedback over that one.  DId the Boudoir dressed, ideally would have left dressed but even so, a new step forward.  Twice to Alison Dale's.  Different style, different experience going back again.  Question about whether doing a dressing service after that see what happens in February.  Had first waxing, probably do more.Met Stellawhen at Gulllivers and Brighton poly, broadening shall we say.  Suppose the slantbar giving a closer shave was good.  The Xhamster account has afforded a bit of joy.  Still need to sort out flash and camera.  Overarching questions over Flickr.  Looking older on pics, not good.  Still thin.good.  As ever more could have been acheived but progress and nreal results.

 So for 2012?  Out a few times in Brighton in February probably.  Summer 2012, probably Brighton again but Legends hopefully.  The support group may lead somewhere.  Would like to try Sparkle.  Reasons to be optomistic.l  Lets set a goal of out in Brighton and , possibly, Newcastle would be good. Hormones keep lurking in the background, not good.  Keep up the exercise and diet. Its meant to be fun.

Christmas Present

Sapphire's Christmas 2011  was definatly a curate's egg and a bit of a flop.Only 1 day of full dressing which produced a couple of good shots but a major league tizzy!  Do not know why it does that, possibly the gurl coming out.  Managed to kill  laptop, very bad news.  Not too much lost but my fault.  Did Christmas shot which went well.  Even emailed Skin Seamstress with it.Bit of shopping in La Senza wich went into admin istration so 50% off but not a La Senza dressing day sadly.  Really need more dressing time. Bought earrings, pendent and lingerie; a very nice silk negligee.  OK cup half full.  Got eyebrows waxed, partial success would have liked more off.  Also got back waxed.   Nice but starting to grow back after 1 week.  Will consider getting front and back done in a few weeks time.  A big success was seeing in the new year dressed!  Ok missed the countdown as thought it was only 11.40, how did that happen?  But yes hit 2012 dressed and slept in aforementioned negligee so result there. Lets hope it is a good omen for 2012.