Wednesday, 22 August 2012
Moving on to the dressing. Friday, saturday, sunday, tuesday, wednesday, friday and saturday was dressed most of the time with a bit of dressing on thursday and thursday so that was successful beyond expectations. Pizza with Stella and Kims party went well, shame party was not first friday. Ideally would have been down during pride possibly next year. Really pushed to put makeup on and not sure how good I am at it. Also big lower abdomen not good, really spoils look badly. Possibly not dressing age appropiate either. However walk to Rottingdean, train to Lewes, MAC makeover, pasta at University of Sussex, espresso at Carlucci's, drink at The Signalman all very good results.Mary Tyler Moore moments soon replaced by something else, a sense of rightness I think.
Will be returning to this but lets go for the big one. How do I feel back home? So far its been not too bad. Little flareups , warm feelings in stomach all nice. Not sure whether dissappointed or relieved I do not have massive withdrawl symptoms. Dressed whenever possible so that suggests one thing about my level of dysphoria so possibly that is the thought to go with. How bad do I want the level ofdysphoria to be?