Just A Quick One

There has been no reply to the emails regarding pics so that is probably off. The plan now is to spend a day in London, the British Museum then nor sure what. That is good enough and should work. Need some time off badly I must admit so very much counting down the days, but the work required is putting me off slightly. Really need a new wig and to sort out the state of play with the wigs.  Also currenlt say 12 st 4 which is not good. It would be exceedingly optomistic to say that the diet had started, made some slight attempts but not much. Possibly its too early in the treatment of thethyroid to say but I look down and its not good, have not been this weight for over 6 years and its not good.Its just very bad timing all round. Unlikely to be in a bikini on Brighton beach, full swimsuit possibly! Al fresco pics are still a possibility. Ideally get a new camera but thats unlikely really.

Flash, Bang Wallop.

Saw an advert mentioning Trans Pride Brighton 2016. To be honest when last year made a big push to get holidays off and go to the weekend, it was underwhelming. Granted the picnic on the beach on sunday was rained off, and how. The disco on the evening a the same place as Transister had a certain value as a historical reminder but it was the march and the main event which was most disappointing. Did not know really what to expect and did not know anyone. Wandered around the stalls and returned slightly later for the music briefly. Not sure how could have cracked that nut but when I found that would miss this years event was not too sad. Gay Pride Brighton the week after was like Mardi Gras but again sensed being by myself was not good. Both events seemed to be a more yoing persons event and a trifle cliquey. I imagine for less socially condfident both events were very valuable but perhaps like the original Transister event I should have made more effort to socialise or find people to go with. Perhaps I am just getting old and grumpy!
Yesterday booked 2 nights at East Croydon Preier Inn. Came close to 3 nights but would have cost £200 which felt too much. As it was came to all in say, £130. Sent Flickrmail to se if pics can be taken. Whilst there are good fun reasons to spend 2 nights in East Croydon, not least of which was the thought of being spared a horrible long journey down, should be able to do it in 40 mins now. None the less there is a sense I am paying rather a lot of money for getting some pics taken.  This is not true but it does linger.
The whole holiday feels distinctly underwhelming still. Only 1 half day of term left, result, but the whole thing feels flat. Then 3 weeks of non term time and off for 2 weeks, need it badly.

Good Enough I Suppose

Yesterday lying in new sleeping bag did the daily check on Booking.com for accommodation in Brighton. Last room in Gullivers, £500. Hummed and harred but with no fee cancellation pressed the button. Then no sense of elation or relief. Few hours later still the same. Put in an application for 8 days at the Park houses in Sussex. There is the photographer thing swirling about which may or may not happen but there is a sort of fugue about the whole business. Want  aholiday and have some money saved up  but its not enough for a really good room in Brighton, would need say £700 plus. And there you have it really. What with the thyroid do not feel up to dropping so much on a holiday this year and certainly not for Brighton. If Swanborough  had been possible it would have been so much easier or perhaps it would have dredged up other issues. So if Sussex say yes will cancel Gullivers, if they say no, well we will have to think.
Its all a battle, packing the pack, carrying it, changing trains, feel tired. However the girl is really crying out for some quality time and she deserves it. The university has a canteen, sorry refrectory which really helps. Could do without the whole student thing and some bad memories there. The bottom line is really should have moved on and if had a better salary would have. Swanborough and, lets be honest Pheonix, would be good enough and Pheonix was, good enough but could not go to that laundry room again.