Things which never were and should have been

I shall be 48 soon, this makes Sapphire only 3 and a half years old.  before then she could have broken out 1 perhaps 2 years earlier.  There were some very heavy hints even 4-5 years before that.  Took some pics of me a couple of days ago and I looked old, the eyes were crinkly and the 2 lines from nostril to mouth obvious.  On the plus side still thin and legs good but in a couple of years could be significantly worse.  Look at Flickr and see young Tgurls and know I will never look like that and feel sad.  OK probably be over this in a few months as Sapphire matures but it is profoundly depressing.  I can  say that the lighting was bad, it was, and I can edit the pics not very much at all to good effect but still.  Actually the best reply was "you couldnot have handled it earlier"  lets hope it's true.  how many young Tgurls in 1990's were unhappy?  I hope very few.