Support group on tuesday 3 new people; a gg with her friend who is trans and an older girl. The 2 were in their early 20's the other girl late 40's. Its a cruel state being trans. The young trans could have passed in a pasty faced goth way possibly but looking round its not good in one sense. Its basically middle aged, fattish girls in wigs and limited makeup none of whom have worked on their voice. Obviously I stand out being totally passable in every way! It is because we are so far from the norm of female itis fair to say we are trans, nobody who was not trans would go through it, sometimes it is like a Monty Python sketch almost. There is a young trans group in Newcastle which she would be better to go to, certainly there is limited value in our group. Was a bit worried about my email and pic to H****** but seemed to go well.
Had opportunity to dress but did not felt too tired. Was in the gym changing room when looked up and saw a pair of brownish legs with a lot of hair. Mildly surprised at my response of being almsot intimidated by them, seeing them as a bad thing. Realised how white my skin is, the tattoist called it "milk white" and how much hair most men have. Also how fat they are and increasingly alien. Do not like the slightly aggressive air there is either. Surprising number of tatto'es too. Do not see many piercings though. Actually feel good with my body and how thin and toned it is. There said it. After all do eat well and exercise so why not? Preening over, knees hurting moving on.
Need to sort out new wig, probably going to be old wig, again, again. May pop into Trendco in Hove. Do need to work on voice, really do, really do.
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