Not a spy

Two pics both from a vitamin company so clearly loaded meanings there. The first shows 3 generations of women in suspiciously clean casual clothing in leaves, probably the leaves mean something to have fun in rather than time passing. Second image shows a woman dressed in loose clothes, say capri trousers and loose top, to her right is a thermos flask the setting is some outdoor garden, lets say an allotment.  The woman, is smiling, sitting and in late 30's say. Its for St John wort so a woman feeling good after tilling the soil about to have a cup of tea , battling inner demons possibly but still looking good and OK.She is alone but happy.
Sapphire has had little interaction with genetic woman, on the whole it has been good. In male mode I interact with a greater number of women at work. Not a big deal of difference with men but seems to be slightly easier. Here it comes.  If I transitioned and passed would i gravitate towards women and would it be easy and work? The answer is the spectrum, I want to present as female and happy to transition but probably never happening. Curiously losing the male bits would not be an issue but living as a female but unsuccessfully would. So, say, the lottery win would be easy but transitiing and still doing my job would be too hard. I have no back story, no children, no husband no P.E. lessons, thats fine, I do not want that. Basically what I want to do is what I do now but as a female. I do not have female aspirations.  Probably more feminine sensibilities than the average male but how much further?  Taken 3 gins and 1 can of 4.8 % lager to get that. 4 gins.