Sort of a MOT

In late october I shall be going to a dressing service. This is the first time since 2012. Been spending some time and £30 getting some clothes which may be appropiate for one of the sets. The problem is I am fatter, not too badly granted and I look older. One of the aims of the session is to see how good I can go. Donot feel ready to stop doing that sort of pic but even so there is a sense that am on borrowed time.
A slight possibility has been sort of bubbling up recently.  Several girls have mentioned getting too old for it and hanging up their heels.  I do not feel that way, possibly as still want to do more as I came late to the party and feel there is still a bit of mileage in me yet. The problem is the face is looking older. The second point is that transition was always seen as a possiblity even if a remote possibility but the though of being an old woman and transition loses a lot of its charm. Possibily we have reached almost some stable state, dress more, get out more but not transition, as its too late in the day for me. Not saying that there is not a fair bit to go but that transition may not be part of it.  just a thought and not for definite. Needs much more work and might be wrong.