First Left, Cannot Miss It

When it all kicked off I realised I needed to go to a dressing service. As ever the internet is your friend.  I suspect it was a list on Translife of such services, some with websites, some not. Well there was a shop or somethng in my home town, no website but a phone no. The shop name I did not recognise and it took a few goes to get through. " We have not been that for years" was the reply. There was also a dressing service outside Darlington.  Not too far.  I went to the most obscure out of the way public phone box and got through. Not very reassuring, "would you want any other services?" he said. Sounded like a "hole in the wall" place and I never persued it any further.
Newcastle had a shop, closed with the Transformations butterfly logo on. Was I saved from making an expensive mistake, probably.  As it was I ended up at the Boudoir.
The second thing to say is that there was never really a big revelationatory moment, a sudden sense of having a realisation.  Rather it has been slow incremental steps.  I had hoped for a big moment when I first did the Boudoir, remember looking at my madeup face from various angles and saying, yes yes a lot.  No big bang or revulsion either. First time going out when slightly drunk, 20 mins of excitement and fear.   The Transister event, in one way a flop in another a success. Suppose going out all day was another big one too. 
So where now? Hormones have been parked for the moment, still got 3 wheels so could restart.  Passed the place where the support group used to meet first. Rather miss that I must say.  Its the new year, I feel older and an questioning things.  It is entirely possible that have reached some steady state. Say 2 holidays with 2 days dressing, a longer holiday, possibly a dressing service, is that enough? 
When I first started trawelling around the Internet read an article that included the phrase"are you Ts, pray to god that you are not as it's a horrible road to go down"  paraphrase it a bit but that has allways stuck with me. Ultimately the fact that I am asking these question suggests that I want to go further. However all the easy bits have been done and there are only the difficult ones left.

The date of this pic is 2005, probably. University of Brighton accommodation.