Manchester, bit of a result.

OK then back from Manchester. first post for too long which probably says something. There was briefly an idea to do manchester en drab with no dressing. It was an idea which had some merit and was not followed up. I did cut back and only took 1 set of clothes really for going out in the day. There was a day in Manchester and a half day in Preston and a half day in Manchester dressed. No big wow moment but what which second small bag and the boots and insoles there was limited issues which most definately helped. Thr feet and knees stayed fine, the eyes not too much of an issue and even the wig went well. A last minute email to S about a possible meet didnot happen but it was not really ever high up on the radar anyway. Too much walking and getting lost. Need really need to get a new coat and some new tops, definately. The problem, and not for the first time, is that when it all works you think it might be possible to go further.
Three, four years ago I had a support group, was taking hormones and there was a sense that  there was a further place to go which was possible without "coming out" as they say. Perhaps there is but only recently has more dressing been possible, more pics and possibly the thyroid getting better though it is still off. There is no 5 year plan at all. There is a sense that this is as good as it is going to get.
Though it all went well there was an increasing sense that I do not look young and have to accept that and move on. Never going to pass and accept that and seem to have ground to a halt with the voice. Do need more and possibly a few occasions amonth todress and say 2 short holidays and a long holiday may be enough. We all want to look like a young girl but middle aged? Well thats the question.