Going past zone 2 to zone 3?

It is 5 weeks since Brighton 2012, get the teeshirt. Coming back on the train I was worried there would be issues readjusting. Perhaps as well hoping this would be a sign that Sapphire was genuine so there would be issues.  Well first couple of weeks went well then things got a bit worse.  Its not crawling up the walls but she is in m dreams more and there are "acid flash backs."  Possibly if the support group had been on that would help but even so there is now an issue that I have shown I can do it and have done it and want to do it again.  Hormones have raised their head again.  Not a good sign. As ever what do I want?  The answer is currently to be Sapphire not on holiday, notice what I did there?, would require a massive change in circumstances.  However, how much do I want to be Sapphire bearing in mind soon I will be much less attractive.  As it is, I am not a young girl but "middle aged" so time is running out.  Hormones would be more risky, SRS more so, even if that was where I wanted to go.  Possible first mention of SRS. Could be something in that.  Transitioning at 60?  Would the NHS go for that, would I?