Holiday Dreaming.

Lets come at this one from several angles.  First of all tidied up room today, found new box  and made some space.  Fair bit of Paige clothes etc about the place . Quite a bit of expense, could it have been better spent?  Holiday 2013, Brighton, again.  What would constitute a success? If no Paige what holidays would I have and would they be more fun?  Pre Paige things were not too bad really.  Granted heterosexually I was rubbish but I seemed to be OK with that.  Here it comes.  Had a mild chance to dress and did not.  Support group cancelled and I am not crawling up the walls.  Granted the estrofem has put me on an even keel kept the GID down BUT do feel there is a big woozle trap waiting due to the self medication.

If I could stop the whole Paige business would I be happier?  I would have more money, possibly different holidays and there would be a lot less stress involved.  I am Paige so very fleetingly that its causing problems.  Say I did stop would that be a good thing?  My feeling is that the dressing is not the whole story.  My mindswt and behaviour has, to put it mildly, a femle slant which can only be explained by GID.  Paige has negative aspects on my life but is stopping the answer?   Lots of question marks and no answers but let it not be said that I dodge the big questions.