So far and no further?

In 3 weeks I shall be on holiday.  On the friday I shall be in Brighton.  So need it to work.  Then again I am not sure where we are now.  Ignoring money issues it will be very interesting to see my response to it all.  Need to think about new, old style, wig.  Read a post where a girl went to Claire Project and had a very good time, clubbing etc.  Must be revamped then! 
Need to contact S*****, put would like to meet in TvChix and possibly something in Angels too.  Have really downsized expectations about it all.  Too much bob stuff going on.  Will need to reread the notes made last year, get a back wax and eyebrows done.  Must not forget sunblock either.  The voice, well that didnot happen, needs to.  Five days of Sapphire, its no longer enough.
K will be off to Durham for a week soon.  May be the possibility of something there.  Quite like to blitz some pics but that seems to have gone off the boil too. 
Need to order some more estrofem, quite like to drop to 1 mg.  Quite like to go to 2 mg x 2 per day too but that willnot happen. 
October probably will not happen either.  Its a negative post really which is not what I want.  The problem is have progressed so far so much more is required for minimum victory conditions. 
All in all it has been a less satisfing year so far but cannot really see how to go forward.  Currently we are stuck in the bocage.  Need to push forward to more "tankable" areas.  How, what is going to be required?  Ultimately I do not burn to be a woman and so am not prepared to sacrifice all to that goal.  Possibly I have reached the status quo I am so seeking.