Antibodies and Bodies

While down at Brighton I noticed a free dropin session for HIV/HepA, B, C and Syphillis testing run by Terence Higgins.  Was not sure about going, still not sure, but did.  Interestingly it was on a monday and felt bit odd about putting male clothes on.  If had been better with times would have put makeup on and dressed but was not sadly.  In the late 80's I worked in virology and carried out such tests myself.  During that time HIV was a death sentence and Hep B could be very bad news too.  We all had, partly due to the training and government information, real concerns about being exposed to bodily fluids; blood, semen etc.  Interestingly today porn and other areas seem to be a lot more relaxed about semen, which I think is a mistake.  Oral sex is not seen as risky which is very probably wrong.  Prostitutes seem to be more clued up, rolling off condoms, putting them and any tissues carefully into a plastic bad, typing it and disposing of it carefully. 
My track record would not put me at a significant risk of being positive but it takes only 1 contact.  Reassuringly I was negative for all which was not a surprise but still nice to have it confirmed.  There was a lack of a moral dimension which is necessary and correct but deep down I did feel having multiple sexual partners in a single session is not wrong or for censore but that there should be some aspect of taking responsability for your actions and how it affects other people.   I felt, again, old as if it was only the young doing these acts.  They reccommended a Hep A vaccination which I will chase up but really not very sexual active and its not a significant aspect of my psyche.

Had to copy the Proms 2013 pics to another file yesterday and spent a few minutes looking through them.  You are 16, female, your parents are spending significant amounts of money on dress, hair, makeup, shoes and nails so the resultant pics were worth some consideration, even if only from a sociological point of view.  So, what conclusions did I draw?  First off there are girls who I know to be attractive in the flesh but the pics, taken from digital cameras of varying qualities, really failed to show this.  Hardly any girls looked significantly pretty.  The camera can most definately lie. There were all shapes and sizes of females but few thin or even what would be considered usual size.  Most were, even if slightly, overweight but also quite small in height.  There were some quite ugly ones, facially.  They all looked older than usual.  There was very little sense of what "I look good in" or joined up thinking regarding the whole dress, hair, shoes ensemble.  Rather I like that dress I will wear it, I like those shoes even if they are platform heels.  Few seemed to have got it all together well.  Lots of leg and skin was shown even if it was not a good idea.  More "I have shown my legsrather than "I have good legs I will show them."  Ultimatly I was left with the sense money had not bought the desired look as well as it might have.  Then again all of them did look female and not male at all.  You can see pics of thin trans girls who have done it all right from makeup to dress but still there is something which says male when looked at.  It is worth saying the only genuinely pretty female pic was from several years ago and she had gone for a classical look.  As ever, this is a terribly sexist way of looking at them, it ignores intelligence, kindness and so many other factors which are important but still is an important analysis for trans girls who need to get the look right. Sadly there was nothing to take from the pics for a 6ft 2 in trans except that pics lie.