On tuesday it was my support group. Decided against going, not totally sure why. Usually do actually get something from it if I do go. I was the first person to go when it was advertised. Not strictly true as a drunk scottish girl also went but never returned. She took flowers, which I thought was a nice touch and said I would fufill my potential. Probably said that a lot. Over time more girls came. Some dropped awaywhich happens. Once a really lovely girl came and I was really attracted to her. looking back it was an unusual experience. Sadly I was wearing the denin skirt which was too small and I showed TOO much leg. Today we are a very diverse group but not sure where I or the group are going. Last time a person looking for the "fight library closure" accidently came in. Not quite sure what they thought of it all. Part of the problem is that I never look at my best. Give me 30 minutes and I put contact lenses and makeup on and the effect is, well, lets say better. Not even getting the chance to shave rather spoils the effect.
Have a real affection for the group as it has been good for me but not recently. It enabled me to get counseling which was probably valuable.
Now i tend for the leggings, flat shoes and long top look. Quick, easy and shows off my body, oh dear. Quite a femme look really. Really must make an effort some time, possibly when off and "blow their socks off" with full strength Sapphire. probably never happen. Actually if I could have a chat with the group leader it may be valuable but the group session experience was never my metier. Not really sure if I contribute anything real to the group either.
Does it help, does it make the whole business better? Probably, yes. Perhaps that is the bottom line.
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