Sometimes you sort of know something is correct but you prefer not to believe it and need a lot of evidence, So deep down I know I do not pass, am too tall, and the face is too long and wrinkled but still cling on to the belief of my female self image as young. This may not be entirely stupid as I am still quite thin with good legs. However my face is old. Recently took some pics and had to say OK perhaps I might not be 21. Started a diet and just under 12 st. Tried on chinese dress originally bought 2 years ago ay Covent garden. OK bit tight but possible. The thights are larger, the waist slightly larger and the lower leg enlarged. All of the above is to be expected as the Pilates has been replaced by the gym work and the whey powder.
Like a rangefinder focussing device it is necessary to get the internal and external image to some sort of approximate sameness. Granted you need self delusion or your would never getup but a certain reality helps. Need to sort out the wig and the makeup. The diet is a pain and the exercise pretty sporadic to be fair. The running is regular but really need to get back to the pilates. Things are not too bad but a little tweaking and effort mow will help a lot.
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