Did a proper open to all run yesterday, 10 K round the town and the coast. 55 .04 minutes since you asked. Quite a few young girls with running shorts or other wise tight garments. Saw very few long legings mostly shorts. Kept wishing I was them with their hair scrunchied back . Used to think I looked a bit girly when in male mode running. sadly a few weeks ago caught sight of myself in a window reflection and the shoulers and torso are too big, the back too haunched and something else which just said male. The legs somehow looked slightly wrong too even though they are long and shaven. Bit of a disapointment. There you have it really. You do your best but its not good enough. Also wondered about doing work on voice, as ever this fails to happen. Its not enough being thinnish, putting on a wig and makeup, lets ignore lips for a moment, and hoping for the best.
What more can you do? Well putting aside SRS and hormones thats your lot really.
Gosh that was negative,came out of 2 gins and some white wine. Again its the do you want to be an old woman or an old man? OK the answer is I want to be happy and identiying as female in some way helps in this. Ah ha, a result there.
postings pics to Flickr etc and basking in the comments do not do it anymore. Which is a bad place to be to be honest as it could well be the only place available to me.
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