Still in the race

Finally did the LGBT 5K run last night.  25 mins since you asked.  The "goody bag" included condoms and lube.  Had hoped to see ex counsellor and say Hi here I am running, its all good.  To be honest not totally sold on the idea of counselling but it did help.  Is it all good?  Was in a pub today, group of women, say late 30's 40's, had life experiences.  Did |I want to be in that group?  Run yesterday certainly wanted to be a lycra lovely.  Say lottery win, transitioned and it all went well.  Voice lessions, result, good voice.  OK currently fully male, not doing too well on that front either.  The answer is the word "spectrum."  Lets say I could wear the clothes, take the hormones and I suspect that would do me. Lets lose the nasty male but not totally.   This might be a project for retirement, too late of course.  the 2 mg of estrofem is not really working but does make me anxious and worry.