Steady as she goes

Well I have been published in TLI.  Only 1 page 3 small pics, for some reason expected 2 pages. Text as I wrote.  Hope it is useful to someone and gives them courage.  OK that sounds smaltzy but it is well meant.  Looked at the pics and did look older, not good.  Still been published so thats the main thing.
Have not had much chance to dress properly; full makeup, pics etc but am still going to the support group so that is really helping.  Have not done a merry christmas pic, may have to use an old one, not ideal but better than nothing. 
Not sure how much dressing over the christmas holidays will be occuring.  Mouth watering possibility of New Years eve dressed but would like a full day. 
Had to retire PA.  Larger BCR did not work, curved barbell anchored the foreskin down.  Possibly a horseshoe BCR might have but suspect not.  Hope the fistula atrophies away, its closed up nicely already.  Can pee fine.. Miss the piercing though.  
Hormones, well not sure there.  Possible growth of breasts, v.v slight.  Two months in now, no T blocker which I feel would be more dangerous.  Do I feel better?  Ignoring the cold, tooth issues, issues with neice, difficult to say.  Arguably a little bit.  Suspect some slight mood swings may be occuring.  Early days.

Been a bitty post this one.  No big central theme.  Possibly thats how it goes.  Had a brief "am I a girl" moment but really suspect not.  Do not really think its because all the big issues have been sorted. Hoping for a good Xmas, would be good for male and female me.