Waiting for it all to begin

I have had a cold off and on for say 7 weeks, coughing up coloured mucus showing infection. Sti ll a bit off and not certain about Xmas. On the plus side I have lost some weight!  Normally for Xmas I would do some shots of me in a Santa outfit and photoshop a message.  I have not really had the opportunity to do one or, to a slight extent, the desire to do a shoot.  Would be nice to get the fridays back and even the new years eve.Been looking at my Flickr account 800 plus pics but the frequency is tailing off.  Possibly I do not need the buzz of comments as much as I used to.  Hopefully this is due to the support group and/or general maturing.  Realised pne reason why I do not look happy in the pics is because I am allways slightly worried about being caught.  february is nearly completely planned, just need the returnn ticket.  Would like to do a La Senza day even though it does not exist anymore, possibly Marks and Spencers! 

A worrying possibility is that the sense of weakness and inability to shake tyhe cold is due to the liver being trashed/ blood clot in lung due to the hormones.  Hopefully not.  Some very very slight sign of breast growth but not a lot.  Went to GP She says "you have body piercings and tattoos"  not sure what that was supposed to mean.  Perhaps should have asked her for a LFT! 
Pic shows Paige at Rottingdean, look old in the face perhaps should be using a larger size top. Saw a massive dragonfly.  Thirty years too late possibly but that way lies madness.