Alternative Tales

Twice now I have Facebook'ed a suggestion for a song to Absolute 80's and on one occassion heard it but the announcer Matthew Rudd said it was someone else who asked for it.  Well, I suggested PhD- I Won't Let You Down Again.  Heard it played and even got name checked, "delighted to play it" he said.  1982.  Possibly some people heard Paige's name and had an image of a girl in a pub, blonde perm, Lady Di flat shoes, too much red lipstick, getting a bright coloured jacket and jeans. Probably a CND badge, one of those army inspired side bags in a cotton weave.  Even a rolled up cigarette, bright lipstick. Its mid week and out after a day at University. Of course I would be happy with a ska inspired black and white top, short black skirt, black tights and white stilletoes.  Big dangly earrings, bobbed hair, arguably dyed black and a plastic hairband.  In a Brighton pub, of course, with mates; both male and female, doing a degree at Sussex. Tall and thin, Gina McKee accent, well sort of, still Wearside.  Doing maths or Physics, bit shy but determined.  Long, thin fingers. Jogging in Stanmer park.  Up on a saturday, jog, shower, out with girlfriends shopping, looking in shops.
Of course Paige is a new name which would be unlikely then.  Its rather nice that there might be a past Paige, in an alternative universe, who just was there.  There you have it.  If things had gone right I suppose I would have been an OK male or female but either way the alternative me would not have known anything different.   If transition happened how long would it take before it "just was" and the other issues of existing kicked in? 
Did a photosession last sunday.  Later, looking at the pics, there was one of me in white holdups which just looked natural and right. Sapphire has been very much rattling about in side me this week, almost painfully so.  Lets not be under any illusion, the estrofem made me much happier and Paige was much more quieter paraodoxically. It is increasingly likely will be going back on them.  It really is quite bad sometimes.
Had a thought this week, possibly when running, have the Post Paige years made me happier?  Decided the answer is a "yes."  In 1995 was on a station, not Widnes but outside Liverpool, there was a poster about counselling, knew there was a lot wrong with me mentally and thought about counselling.  OK there is the Aspergers, possibly, but would the GID have come out then?  If it had where would it have led?  Alternatvely, lets say I met alt me and we got on, what would that have led to?