Picture Perfect

In 1984  I remember wearing a tshirt pulling it tight and thinking with as sense of shock, I look like a girl, as I had a feminine figure.  Oh dear.  Another thing I had started doing was shaving my pubic hair. Also some simple anal play. 
On two occasions I took pics of myself naked, with an erection.  Fortunately I had a decent SLR and a flash unit, also access to a darkroom so it was not too difficult for me, though I still wonder where a couple of the frames went!   Though Amateur Photographer advertised people happy to develop and print such pics, for a price, it must have been a bit ofa battle for the "Readers Wives " pics.  Then there was the stigma about it.  Remember a documentary about Page 3 models and one saying they would take a quick peek at the pic in the paper and close it quickly.  Even today some poor sad girl commited suicide over being in a pornographic video. Today the technology is much easier and the "selfie" is all over the place, thought the term does not refer to pornographic pics. ly enjoying Looking at some pics, pornographic, of slightly older women, saw that slightly rictus smile, that uneasy pose, that sense of not really enjoying it and doing it for their partner.  Which is a bit sad and not really a pic you want to see.  By contrast the younger girls do seem to be enjoying the idea and happy with it, the body language looks much more happier.  The Tgirls pics typically fall into the latter catergory, we want to be seen, to be seen as sexual objects and enjoy it. Almost in a sense, pics of the Me209 bursting into flames as seen through the gun cameras, I was there I did that, a sense of achievement.  Which is is when you think about it.