Smoking Gun

When a teenager my voice took forever to "break."  To make things worse I had a very high pitched voice.  None of this should matter but a lot of my cohort at school were very unkind and unnecessary.  Not a nice time.  Dad and I went to my GP who reccommended reading out a loud and letting time do its work.  Dad was not very inpressed with this and actually by 17 the voice did break and is, sadly, deep, and sometimes a bit Mr Bean like. Anyway when I said I was off to the GP and asked what they might be able to do I said "hormones."  One boy kept saying hormones to me in a nasty way for quite some time.  He later turned out to be gay I believe so had his own inner demons but again not nice.
Anyway last saturday at 1715 hours I put a blue 2 mg esterfem pill on my tongue and let it dissolve.  In some attempt at ritual I stared at a nice pic of Audrey Hepburn at the same time. It is wednesday and I now realise I should put it under the tongue to absorb better. Any effects to date are probably psychological, as happened with some herbal supplements last year, but might get some effect.  Its the ratchet effect, need to go further, do more.  If it calms the mental chatter that would be enough.I would be happy to lose my libido too, no more erections on a saturday or sunday morning at 6 am would be great.  Not masturbating much either.  Was not even before the P.A. piercing.  My erotic imaginings have not involved penetrative sex for some time. 
It would be nice to imagine that the voice breaking suggests some feminisation or other issue.  Sadly I have good beard growth and body hair including pubic hair which I battle with at a regular basis.  Mind you the pain in the scrotum and the KYjelly breast fantasy might suggest a nascent Sapphire saying hello!