Watch on the Rhine

It is late sunday afternoon, I have had half a bottle of wine and a litle rum and cola.  Its sort of OK really, I am warm, slightly drunk and have pilated quite well so feel OK.  Shaved chest, some slight sign of growth.  Had hoped to dress.  Getting to me now.  Not a proper session for some time.  Tuesday may well not happen at all. Time on holiday is good for Paige but time here is not but most time is spent here.  There is the rub.Am I prepared to make the changes.  Or am I in a sort of limbo want more but the drive is not great enough.  Everything I have achieved so far I have had to do, very little has been luck, OK to my knowledge. may be wrong but never know.   Where now?  Its like with HiFi.  You can do all the cheap easy upgrades but there comes a point where to get the next level of sound you will have to pay big money.  So it is here. Shaving, earpiercing and dieting are all reasonably cheap options.  The time is nearing where big choices may well have to be made.  Sometimes though it may not feel like it there are worse things than being slightly down and disquiet you are not in pain or fear or doubting your future.  Granted that is the way to stagnation but possibly contentment as well.  Lets see where the drive takes us.