It is sunday afternoon again. Two glasses of slightly oxidised red wine have failed to do anything worthwhile. Again I ironed yesterday so am sitting here by a roaring calor gas and tornado candle. Earlier today I went to the gym. Used to do 15 times 2 reps of the highest weight I could manage but this actually worked and there was some muscle mass growth so stopped that. Thighs mostly but not good. Now dohigh reps low weight exercises and 15 mins on the treadmill. Hope it works. Mind you pilates hits the "powerhouse" much more. Tempted to try running outside again. Need to get back into shape could lose half a stone probably, certainly need to lose "love handles." Slight sign of growth of breasts, occassional twinge. Hate my hair on the body and legs. The rib cage is too large for a womans and the muscles "6 pack" looks wrong too. From the front its OK but from the side its soo wrong. Nothing can be done though, cannot change skeletal structure. Feet looking a bit rough too. The crease at the elbow is more obvious too. Still thin still 6 ft 2 in.
In just over 3 weeks I shall be going to Brighton. Wednesday Alison Dale, thursday and friday Brighton. There will be 2 days of external dressing, possibly in the cold! Cost is quite high, £100 trains, accommodation £150. Alison £200. Then there is spending money and the rest. So beaucoup money then. However the costs of not doing it are MUCH higher. Dark, cold, snowy post christmas mornings, moments with the mind in neutral think 6,5, 4 weeks to go. That ignores the need to be ME. See that just popped out. Blame 50ml of whisky and another glass of red wine. Actually suspect ME does not need to go full time just be ME a lot more than I am. Not sure about that one but it may be the best compromise. Cholesterol is 4.25 so the GP scare may be not too important The hormones may not be trashing the liver. Still need to get LFT's etc done. I am now groping for a final sentence to tie it all together. Had hoped to do something in April but bob me life events suggest that may not be an option. Still could do Manchester or Liverpool. Still like echo beach thats far away in time.http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Echo_Beach
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