Lack of choice

The hormones are not a done deal.  For the past 2 days I have had strong emotional periods lasting say 30 minutes where I have wanted to cry, really bad.  Nothing specific as a cause but its been bad.  Very very slight breast growth so far.  Read a post saying if stop female signs may or may not disappaear but that there is no guarantee testesterone production will restart which may may will show age more than otherwise and health be affected.  The alternative is to keep taking hormones till end of days. Only 5 monts in so not too much damage done hopefully or at least nothing that can be recovered from.  Do like the thinner hair, loss of erections and lighter beard but these emotional episodes do need to stop or resolve themselves.  Given the time to order and get more estrofem do need to make a decision soon. 

Support group on tuesday.  Usually wear quite sedate clothes, say leggings,  for a while wore a terribly short skirt and heels, not a mistake but not what I would do today.  When the weather improves may show more skin.