Paige did not just happen everything about her has required work and conscious effort. From hair colour to exercise there has been a conscious decision. In a sense have been a bit blundering around and moving towards a rather nebulous goal, picking off all the easy choices. The taking of the hormones took a lot of thought but, like all so far, was initially easy. OK it was done after research and a lot of thought but, so far, thee has been no significant consequences. So we are at, say, 5 months. If I continue much longer the breasts and nipples may well be obvious, I may be sterile, not that that is a big issue. The point being I am still bumbling along, making do and it has worked so far.
This will not continue. Hard choices have to be made sooner rather than later. How much do I want to sacrifice for Paige? Proper transition, real life experience, going into the NHS system. Stopping drinking. Different job. I have not even made any effort to get the voice right. Perhaps drop to 1 mg per day or every other day as it does help to keep me on an even keel. UltimatELY IT GOES BACK TO THE QUESTION; HOW MUCH OF A GIRL ARE YOU? Answers please, on a postcard. There have been some very brave actions so far, more than some have done, but were not required to do, there is no obligation to go any further.
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