Need to raise my game

Bought a couple of items of clothing from Lidl, went for small rather than medium.  Had to think about it and it was a mistake.  Not a total disregard of reality mistakebut a mistake I had done before.  In quite a few ways I am 10-12 size BUT, here it comes, there are bulges in the wrong places.  Granted there is the obvious one but also the bottomm of the rib cage and the muscles in the abdomen.  The body is too thickbetween end of ribs and pelvis, the rib cage is too large.  The hands are wrong too but this is not the place for that issue.  What am I saying? Well the top In bought at M and S Brighton worked because I went up a size and because it was dark and patterned and hid these features.  Likew a woman I now need to be more clever than just sizes, patterns and cut matter too. Granted at my height there are other issues too.
Last february at the Premier In I was left with the slight sense that I was relying on the politeness of strangers.  The wig was well off and the makeup less than ideal, thats before we get to the voice.  It was not a good feeling.  The lips need work.I may never pass but I can do more.  The Aldi mksup may help as well as realistic wig and dress sense.
The estrofem really kicked in today.  Three days and it was just there affecting my mental stare.