It is friday night. It had been a productive day and I have had the evening to myself and wll have the rest of the night. Little bit of camming and some, not many, new pics. not as good as last time but still better with new flash. sadly at 12st someting sometimes I look slightly chubby. More worryingly I also look a bit old. No surprise there. Its begining to feel as if I started a race late and though people will admire how much ground I have made up and my effort I will never be in the top group. There has been so much effort too; dieting, exercise, contact lenses, MAC makeup, camera etc, a lot of research and, lets befair if slightly vain for a moment, I have made a damn good fist of it. other girls are fatter, take worse pics, a bad with makeup and their effect is worse. However they look young and could lap me if they put the work in.
So what am I saying, a gradual acceptance of my lot and withdraw from the game? Well only to an extent. As long as I have good legs and am thin this girl will be out there. There is the question of where out there is going to be but lets ignore that for now.
My knees hurt and for 2 pins I would not have bothered tonight. There could have been other reasons for being tired.
Not too shabby for 50?
Just a quick addenda. I never had a girl friend, there was a "false memory" about cutting my penis" and also my voice not breaking. I was never a rufty tufty male. How much of that could be put down to shyness or autism, however you are defining that, and how much to a latent GID? I am searching around again for a ceolacanth. Some sign, some shadow, some protoPaige, something I can cling onto.
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