Not a lot happening really

Had a few weak moments this week about restarting the hormones, just in a small way, 1 a day.  Paige is very strong at the moment.  Breasts, OK nipples, seem to be the same size.  Sadly know only too well there is no forward plan for getting breasts.  So I am stuck really.  No real dressing for a few weeks now and it is hurting a bit.  Support group continues to be useful rather than valuable. 
There is also the matter of money.  A few years ago I could do breaks  in february, April and the summer along with 2 appointments at a dressing service.  Now summer 2013 is going to happen but it is a bit of an economy version.  Fewer days, no dressing service justhope the weather is kind which it has not been so far.  Brighton February was a learning experience!
Cannot really see how things are going to change for the better.  Lasy year was very good for Paige but this year, well its early days, but there is a sense at best consolidation rather than advancement really.
Bit worried about the gym producing a more manly body.   Currently say 12 st 2 lb.  Bought 2 tops from Lidl, size medium, probably slightly too large and do need to tr them on properly but either sense of realism setting in or getting bigger.
I am hoping the bank holiday produces something useful forPaige.