Mentioned in last post the idea of a "moonshot" a big thing to try. Transister was that, as was going to a dressing service dressed. There is also inherent in it the idea of a lot of planning being needed as well as a final act requiring bravery. Possibly the last 2 holidays were moonshots too. In a way the hormones were also a moonshot but a day to day bravery rather than a final single act. It is probable I may well go back to the hormones but I have no final aim, things are complicated. How could I live a life with breasts, how could I plan for that what could I change to bring it into a possibility? There you have it, again and again the brick wall keeps appearing.
Getting a tattoo on saturday. it is a ladybird and on left shoulder blade. it could be girly but also as I collect ladybird books. Once you accept the idea of modifing your body tattoos and piercings seem tame compared to hormones. There is no Ladybird book of Tgirls, no Observers guide to Transitioing or even a Project book to being Trans. You have to do your best.
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