On the level

When I think of Brighton 2013 there is a slight sense of disaapointment.  Ignoring reasons for this for a moment an event has bubbled up which is significant.  I am on the green at St Peter'sBrighton eating an Aldi sandwich and fruit pot.  Suspect about to go to the Claire project so M ad S top, wooden beads and flats, as ever.  The point here is it was not part of the "bucket list" as I have read it described, it was just a thing to do.  Hopefully as a normal woman would.  Granted rare to see women by themselves but lets move on.  Thats where I am when in Brighton, nothing to prove just doing all the normal things as a normal woman would.  Sadly the other 51 weeks that isnot an option.  OK there are other holidays and occassional times to dress but its an issue.  On friday waas in office and it burned surprisingly brightly.  Hopefully tomorrow should get time to dress and possibly pics.  Lets be real.  I have been doing this since 2007,really 2007 must check, anyway at least 5 years.  Its stronger, it has not gone away.  I have awheel of estrofem in my draw.  Last year around this time I started on the hormones.  Had to stop but could so easily start.   If the burning gets stronger and too much may have to  go back to it.  lets say I work till mid 60's then transition what sort of life would that be?  Transition at 55, need a new jiob, live else where , lets not go there, how to make that a reality?  Am I really talking about transitioning or can I live with a bit more?